On that dark night, my heart weighed heavily in my chest. Compulsion drove me to my knees. The prayer on my lips did not match the reality in my heart, but this realization only came later. A Shane and Shane song played over and over. The refrain echoed in my soul, and I cried out the words, “I will wait for you, I will wait for you. On your word I will rely. And I will wait for you, surely wait for you ‘til my soul is satisfied.”
And yet, I did not wait. Instead, I got angry and hurt. I wrestled with God. Why, God, why? Why would you not answer this prayer that seems so obviously in Your will? Why would you allow this brokenness?
And God graciously waited until I could hear His voice.
Many months later, that same Shane and Shane song played on the radio. Despite the unanswered prayer, I still sang. The song still resonated. And God spoke to my heart. Morgan, do you remember praying this prayer? Do you remember saying that you would wait for me? Are you ready now? Will you let go? Will you wait for me? Will you let me do the work?
On that dark night, why did God place that Shane and Shane song on my heart? Why did the prayer on my lips not match the reality of my heart? Because God prays through His broken vessels. And God gives us space to wrestle and grow. He waits for us, and He teaches us to wait on Him.
Are you waiting? Are you wrestling to understand His ways? Come.
Rest in His goodness. Trust God’s story. Wait. He will wait for you.
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